I don't necessarily hate my dead name

it's more of a necronym, a homomatopoeia if you will

I mostly hated my name because 1) literally given the same exact name (first, middle, last) as my abusive father and 2) being infantalized my entire life with the "cutesy" version where you say the person's name like there's a Y or IE at the end.

If it wasn't the same name as my dad, I would actually be happy with it, because it's Irish and the same as a couple of my favorites actors (Ned Stark, Samwise, and Stifler)