i finally finished a full story, a whole ass novel, its a little over 80,000 words
now im gonna be doing editing and fixing it up since i wrote it uhhh i forget what the phrase is like i wrote it straight through without editing
i wish i had friends or anything that cared about it though...
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/14521965/1/The-Party-That-Adventured
the first time i was transported like astral projected to basically a void in space where you could see starpoints in all directions but thats it and in front of was a giant door of truth like in fullmetal alchemist- then i heard something aking to a feeling that said "not yet" and i came back to my body and stopped tripping immediately (it was MAYBE 20 seconds of actual the astral projection scene). the second time i saw the world turn into fractal geometry that i then noticed was actually contained with a crystaline structure forming basically a tube shape around me that i was floating in and i could see the reflection of a many-eyed spider goddess/entity/thing watching me curiously. the third time, i woke up in a transparent cube structure with a different spider entity outside of it. i tried using dream logic to escape the cube but the spider thing tried to talk to me and we couldnt communicate normally but then somehow we started speaking like "feelings" and "intentions" into each other's mind, and it taught me how to get out of the cube, and that was the first time i was able to "lucid dream" in a high intensity/dose trip.
i have made so many games i have actually been able to do stuff without my meds its great
now if only i could eat normally...
i played guitar for almost two hours today, and learned two or three new songs
i did a bunch of productive stuff
i have been walking a lot
i can rebuild myself even better than before
