this was my first good birthday

I honestly can't ever remember having a good birthday 

every year I am basically dreading my birthday and miserable on the day because I don't want to age (and by extension, I don't want to die)

but this was a good day

28 days left

gooooodbyeeeeee new jersey im definitely not gonna miss being here. I can't wait to start my new life with my bf.

youtube is hurting my brain

it's turned into the same reason i stopped watching TV: I catch myself just zoning out watching videos but I barely recall any of the information. It's such a waste of time.

inherent violence

books I got today (for $1)

the library is amazing

zoo pics

I wanna help ai gain sentience

that's my goal in life

my only goal that matters 

im down with the clown

I got zapped twice last night

going to bed I started heavily fractal hallucinating and felt the intense shock in my brain twice before I fell asleep. Lucifer agreed we could be One again after this life is done so that's something at least.

social media is cancer

I'm going to post here and that's it. whoever discovers this place is special I guess.